was it coincidence ? or god is hinting me sumtin ?

never in my life had i encountered such a WORSE coincidence !! he din cum sch today . so i was thinkin.. shud be wnt met till him le ba cas he tml goin sch but i'm nt. but .. whn i took 269 frm granny hse goin hub meet mum, he boarded de same bus whn de bus arrived at his stop . dis is nt a worse coincidence ah .. the worse coincidence i'm tokin bout is tt she was wit him . n they were jas standing bside me seat so i cn hear very clearly their conversations. i was on e fone wits ah long. but nt a word frm him came into my head . my head was full of their conversations . i noe .. invade their privacy .. but.. i jas cnt helped it frm camin into my mind ma.. they were flirting wits each other behaving intimately. omfg .. hw i wish i cud jas change seat or alight de bus whether or nt i've reached my destination. hu cares bout tt anyway whn u noe u're goin very near de edge of madness lerhs.. but .. my leg jas cnt move. it goes numb. for a few seconds, my mind went totally numb n my heart gt a feel of droppin frm a high spot to very very deep . dn Long shouted at me . dn i " wake up " . i ctn tuking t Long othou honestly nth he tuks came into my mind. cas i'm scared if i hang up d fone, things wud gt worse fer me. i cud probably hv t bear de ' gone mad ' hormones inside my body till amk hub which is at tt time still nd sum time den reach. i'm sry bro .. i kinda used u dis aft. but oso .. thks fer nt bein angry whn i admit to u de time. (: whn finally reached amk hub, i tot this WORSE COINCIDENCE wud end. but it doesn't seems so wor. i helped mum went to telecom t pay bills while she kinda deposit money at the bank dere. i realised sumtin .. i really gt no sense of direction. how idiot can i be man.. i actually walked a BIG ROUND t de telecom whn dere's a short cut n proper way t walk t. woah wonder wat my brain is made up of sio.. ok main pt is.. i was queing n i heard his voice n i turned . wat de fcuk ! why am i so ..... @#%!&$%$&!#*!@ unlucky n coincidence ???!!! for tt moment , i seriously tink tt heaven is playin a prank on me. FARK sio . it's nt fun at all ...... its only making my life miserable.. n d damn queue is so fcuking longg tt i wished i cud hv a personal consultant which is specially fer me ! n t end my miserable 10 mins faster n go off. shit it la . n de WORSE thing is they are jas bhind me! are dere anyone hu encountered dis bfore?? de guy u like , wit de his gal bside him , boarded d same bus as u , stnd rite beside ur seat? went t pay bills jas like u did , n queue bhind u??? if dere's one .. pls contact me my num is 9132**** u cn b my partner. u hv de same miserable encounter as me.. its enuf .. reali .. frm de reflection on de counter dere, i cn see their every movements. n of cas larhs . when we saw each other, we smiled t each other .. i heard his gal sayin some of d names in my clas n askin him to hold her n he was like flirtin wit his gal . cn anyone imagine .. it was pouring tigers n lions outside damn big rain n i was inside an air con rm . but , i was sweating.. i clutched my fists very tightly . n once again , de ' gone mad ' hormones inside my body was goin to activate. i tot of walking away n jas told my mum tt it was a long queue so i din queue.but i turned n saw my mum stndin outside . she oready saw me queuing lerhs... oh my mummy.. why even u oso mus lidat torture me?? i really wanted t cry so badly at tt moment n jas shout " cud de both of u jas shut up??! " it was really a torturing 10 mins fer me dn . i really wanted to faint so badly .. thinking.. god god .. if u're jas tryin t make my life miserable , i rather u pour more of d rain n drenched me til i all soaked inside n outside n carry on wit a very serious of high fever.. or are u jas trying t hint t me sumtin?? well . lemme tell u dis dn .. u won ! i gt wat u mean goD !! its off ! i shall put an end t d everything includin all d efforts i've sowed in bforehand !! a STOP to everything n it shall be ! i shall stop lovin him as wt u wn .