i used to believe hw i treat pple and vice versa . means pple woud be oso treat like tht treat me back . but some pple woud somehow wake me up frm dis stupid and silly thinkings . of cas i'll feel disappointed by dis realistic fact tht my thinkings are wrong . but i oso feel gratitude to them for waking me up and stop being so silly anymore. i realised .. de way u treat pple, they nt confirm will treat u back dis way . so i can only blamed myself for being silly . my parents and even my sister and godbrother , frm young , keep tellin me tht " de world , society , are all realistic and cruel . esp de contacts btween pple and pple . don ever put others bfore u as in de end , u'll end up being de losed or disadvantage one . and de way u treat pple , they nt definitely mus treat u back de same way . " but i owaes argue back tht i believe hw i treat pple , they will oso treat me back de way . i mus trust tht they will treat me good if i did oso . wht woud u all do if others don trust u " all of them jus scolded me for being silly and stupid . but i don care . i hold me believes strongly . since young i've owaes believed in dis . but somwhow i understand why my relatives and some frens will scold me silly and stupid ler. but it jus makes me so sad can .. why cnt pple be like wht i believed in ?? de way i treat them and de way they treat me back .. 1 person , 2 person , i tot nbm its jus some exceptionals . but somehow more and more pple ard me are making me lost confidence in my believes . and it jus so heart wrecking can .. anyw .. i'll still believe tht if i treat pple whole-heartedly , one day they will treat me back de way too . i dun wnna lost faith in pple as its scary .